i have several blogs and i am only able to update just one. so i ventured updating here and i got frustrated for a full minute that i couldn't remember the damn password here.
funny, karen sent me a document she saved herself and protected with her password, and now she couldnt open it cuz she forgot the password.
i'm here to spill the fuzz in my brain, it has been sleep deprived. the white revo was coding so i left the house 6am and got to the office 640am.. not a trace of them blue mmdas in site.
i have been revisitng the kittenboard again a lot lately, and i've been trying to draft an update to my unfinished fics.. which i left hanging in year 2003.. geez, thats so 4 years ago.
attract what you think.. so what The Secret says. i have been looking at porn lately, will i attract porn? hahhahaa.
yes, i think it is true that i attract what i think, though there are some delays in the manifestations. as for example, about a month ago i have wondered how my old friends are.. and then they would text now, asking how i am.
and jobs, so many job vacancies when i have a good paying one now in a cool foundation...
and potential dates, but i'm not too interested. it is clear that she and i are over. i am not as attached to her as before. but the residue of romance is there, and it gets amplified when i see her... and when i talk to her i realize i again why i love her.. or loved her.. i dont know.
im happy not to be in a relationship right now. to explore areas of my character. drop my self off at uncomfortable territory, see how i will fare.
but i really really pray i get that fellowship in new mexico. my creative writing has been shelved and now it is gathering not cobwebs but mucus.
goin back to work now. yes i have been blogging here illegaly.